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This Naked Mind

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Annie Grace

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At 3:33 a.m., I wake up, grappling with the same thoughts each night. I try to reconstruct the previous evening, counting five glasses of wine, but the memories blur. I realize I can't continue this way and begin to worry about my health. Guilt and self-recrimination flood in: What was I thinking? Don't I care about my family? I vow to change, promising myself to do better tomorrow, yet those promises never materialize. I often cry or feel anger, and lately, I've been sneaking drinks to quiet my mind and fall back asleep. These early hours are my only moments of honesty, where I acknowledge my drinking problem, but by day, I wear a mask of happiness and control. I convince myself that I love drinking, that it enhances my life. The cycle persists, with evenings bringing more alcohol and a return to denial. The thought of being an alcoholic terrifies me, as does the idea of giving up drinking. I fear the shame and stigma associated with it. My brother's experiences with Alcoholics Anonymous haunt me; they label alcoholism as a fatal illness. The concept of recovery seems to mean accepting a life of mediocrity and missing out. Yet, I crave freedom from alcohol's grip. I realize it has taken more from me than it has given. I want to regain control, and I have. I now drink only when I want, and the truth is, I no longer desire it. I see my addiction clearly now.